Learn To Be Lonely

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You’ve always known your HEART was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can lived life can be loved alone

Well that speaks for itself don't ya think?
I will take my leave of you now.

Melancholy Shades Of Grey

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother. I am invisible, like a nightshade, or the souls of the departed. Felt but only when passed through. Forever to observe never to interact. That is the fate, the edict I suffer. To only ever be noticed when I'm needed or when my melancholy greyness infringes on the yellow, red and oranges of the ordinary happy man. So why to I even bother trying to become a part of their world when I know in the end I will just be sent back to my shades, my shadows. I don't really expect anyone to read this seeing as how no one ever really seems to care about anything I have to say. "I a rock, I am an island, for a rock feels no pain. And an island never cries." Wise words to live by. So back in the haydays of yor I creep, ever as slight and unseen as before. I was never here, I am just the memory of the whisper of the east wind, lest important of the four, so soft a contact with your conscienciousness that it may have been just a dream.

The Seven Deadly Sins

Por scheiße y giggles... (That's four languages right there yo, look at me and my bad self!)

Put an X next to the things that apply to you.

Have you ever...
[x] been drunk. (ish)
[] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.(ish)
[x] shoplifted.
[] been fired.
[] been in a fist fight
[x] snuck out of your parent's house.
[] been arrested.
[] made out with a stranger
[x] stole something from your job.
[] celebrated new years in times square.
[] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher.
[] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[x] been to europe.
[] skipped school.
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[] cheated on a bf/gf.
[] been cheated on.
[x] had a sweet sixteen.
[] had a quinceanera.
[] had a car.
[x] drove

Do you...
[] have a boyfriend.
[] have a girlfriend.
[x] have a crush.
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy. (ish)
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room. (2)
[] listen to rap/r&b.
[x] listen to rock.
[] listen to alternative.
[x] listen to pop.
[x] paint your nails
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.(to bed)
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color yellow.
[] cyber.
[x] like to sing.
[x] like to dance.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[] have long hair.
[] have short hair.
[x] have medium length hair
[] have a cell phone.
[x] have a laptop. (ish)
[] have a pager.

Are you...
[x] bored.
[x] happy. (ish)
[x] white.
[] black.
[] spanish.
[] asian.
[] short. (ish)
[x] tall(er).
[] grounded.
[x] open-minded.
[x] sick.
[x] lazy.
[x] single.
[] taken.
[] looking.
[x] not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[x] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[] drinking something.
[] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[] homophobic.
[] racist

(Oh yeah and if you're wondering why only half the x's are red, well my hand got tired.)
Random Quote of the day:
"If they find us they will pants us, gind us into tiny pieces and then blast us into oblivion!" -Star Wars Pantsified

Things That Just Suck/Are Sad

When the bad guy is really cute/fuckable/totally human so you sympathize with them

When there's no toilet paper in a public restroom

When your math teacher is an asshole from hell

When drama practice stops you from seeing a scary movie with a hot boy

When you lose your vocab words and have a test in nine hours

When people don't know what a turn signal is

When you get stuck behind a diesel engineered vehicle in a construction zone

When start to fantasize about fictional people

When you have an itch in that one place on your no human can reach by them selves

When your hand cramps up and you have 150 more words to type for that essay

When the pervert from church tries to hit on you, but it really just doing a bad job of feeling you up while giving you a hug

When said pervert thinks that you like said feeling up and sits down as close as humanly possible to you

When you're attracted to one of your friends

When you're not attracted to someone who's attracted to you

When the highlight of your weekend is staying up 'til about three in the morning reading fanfiction about Alias and Stargate

When you can smoke, die for your country, get married and play the lotto at eighteen but you can't go out and buy a beer

When your friends think you're a wench

When really good insults like wench and whatnot just don't have the effect they used to

When you can't sleep

When the batteries die just when you really need them

When someone says "Things can't get any worse." And then they do.

When you make a complete ass of yourself in front of someone you like

When you really want to smack someone but can't

When when the aforementioned pervert starts "hitting" on your friends as well and your only protection from him has moved away

When you stop and over analyze your entire life and find very little meaning in it.

Did I mention that Sark(the bad guy in the picture from Alias) is a total hottie? Ever notice how you just can't help but be attracted to the bad guy? Gotta love how they are always the cute ones. Still. Yum.

Random Quote: "I've had a perfectly wonderful evening, but this wasn't it." Groucho Marx

Shall I Compare Thee To A Summer's Day?

So I have a new blog that's exclusively for my poetry and shorty stories. Feel free to check it out here. And on a more boring note. Exams this week. Barf. But I get to go see Les Mis tomorrow at Popejoy Hall. Wheee! So it's not an entirely bad week. Oh bugger! I forgot to ask him help me study for spanish when I called him. Bother! Oh well. So anywho that's really all I have to say. Laters, people.

Of Ranch Dressing and Raw Eggs

So Anywho that's what I heard cures hangovers, not that I have one but it seemed an appropriate title. Homecoming was last night and it was the best dance I've ever been to. Dinner was nice, I looked incredibly sexy, a reincarnation of Ginger Rogers herself, and I got to dance with cute lads, which I shall name for you: Ted G., Andrew B., Devin K., Elliot C., Mark S., Steven G., and Zack. Life is good. And I got to go to an after party, where everyone was nice to me. And I got free beer. And almost got kissed. Life is good. And I had conversations with people I like never talk to, which is a new experience for me. Everyone who's anyone was there afterwards, so many anyones in fact that they had to play the cop trick. Last night was one of the most memorable moments to date in my life, cause I just danced with everyone and hung out with everyone and I was part of the whole. AND I flirted with my cutie pie, and he flirted back. Last night was definitely one of those moments I'd live over and over and over again for the rest of eternity.

The Why, And The Why, And The Why, And The Why

So it's Homecoming week. And I'm running for Queen. Elections are tomorrow and I really want to win at least one of the Senior Princess spots because I think I deserve it. Of the 20 some girls that are running, only about five deserve to win, myself included. But like just about everything else in high school, this is a popularity contest, something that I'm not good at mainly because I am neither a jock or babe, nor am I a whore. So basically if I win anything, it will be due to the fact that I either have very persuasive friends and people like me, or it's a fluke/conspiracy. I just feel like I'm missing out on the good parts of the high school experience because of stupidity on majority's part. Fuck peons!

Life is kinda at a low point right now. I got a D on a Trig. quiz today and I don't get that because the way I see it I only missed two problems cause I read the directions wrong. Oh well, it's just a quiz. But I do think I passed my Vocab test with flying colors. Which is good considering English makes me want to shank myself.

So anywho, I have no date for Homecoming which makes me kind of sad. I really wanted to go with someone but everyone already seems to have a date. Well if worst, comes to worst I could always get a blind date. But the last time I did that it didn't turn out entirely well. So anywho I really want ot bitch at some people, one in particular but I'm too fricking tired. And I have to get ready for the rest of the hectic week, which includes somehow getting a dress before 6 p.m. tomorrow night. Damn St. Francis bazaar. No I take that back. I got some really cool stuff from the silent auction there. But can't my mother learn the word no. Anywho that's life. I can stick oh well.

Later my faithful friends and if you read this before 10 am mountain time, pray for my success in the election. You know I deserve it.

Quote of the day:
"Five Jewish men influenced the history of Western civilization.
Moses said the law is everything.
Jesus said love is everything.
Marx said capital is everything.
Freud said sex is everything.
Einstein said everything is relative."